My ramblings...

boom booms...

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 20:59:04 GMT

The year is halfway over...I think I'm doing well on my list, considering everything that's occurred this year.

~Take dance classes again! -I AM TAKING TAP CLASSES AGAIN! THEY ARE SOOOO FUN AND I EVEN GOT NEW TAP SHOES. IT'S WONDERFUL. NO WONDER I'M IN A BETTER MOOD.
~TRAVEL:
*Oklahoma -UNLESS MY AUNT NEEDS HELP MOVING, I DON'T KNOW THAT I'LL GET BACK TO OKLAHOMA. BOO.
*Springfield -PROBABLY WON'T GET BACK THERE UNTIL AUGUST NOW. BLAH.
*Milwaukee -AUGUST I'M THINKING IS THE SOONEST.
*St. Louis -DEFINITELY WHEN MY AUNT MOVES.
*Wyoming -9 DAYS BABY!! GOOD TIMES AHEAD!
*Florida! -MY DAD DID SPEAK OF VACATIONING IN FLORIDA SOMETIME IN THE NEARISH FUTURE. THAT WOULD BE AMAZING.
~Learn how to kick a field goal!! -I REALLY WANT TO DO THIS.
~Enjoy golfing!! WELL I STARTED TEACHING AGAIN YESTERDAY, ALTHOUGH I HADN'T PICKED UP A CLUB SINCE APRIL. OOPS.
~Finish my MBA -I FORMALLY APPLIED FOR MY DECEMBER GRADUATION. EEK! I GOTTA GET THROUGH THESE CLASSES FIRST THOUGH!
~Go to Gold's more (last free year! lol) -I HAVE GONE TO GOLD'S! I LOVE THE TREADMILLS!
~Bowling -I'M MISSING TONIGHT. WHOOPS.
~More concerts - I WENT TO GAVIN DEGRAW LAST NIGHT. IT WAS OKAY.
~Bears training camp -AUGUST!! WOOT!
~Bears game (gotta meet Robbie Gould!) -TICKETS GO ON SALE WHEN WE LEAVE FOR VACATION NEXT WEEK--BAH--HOPEFULLY I CAN GET SOME ANYWAYS.

Awesomeness.....I'm so excited for vacation...I definitely need it! :)

if you would meet me halfway....

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 01:37:16 GMT

It's already June! Yikes! The time is certianly flying! Let's see how I'm doing on my goals for the year...probably not much different than last time...

~Take dance classes again! -WAITING TO SEE WHEN SUMMER TAP CLASS IS IF I CAN DO IT. OTHER THAN THAT, I'M GOING TO TAKE BODYJAM AT GOLD'S AND CONTINUE WITH MY DVDS.
~TRAVEL:
*Oklahoma -UHH PROBABLY NOT, BUT I WILL KEEP HOPING.
*Springfield -I WENT LAST WEEKEND, AND MIGHT GO AGAIN IN A COUPLE WEEKS. OOH THEN IN JULY. HEHE.
*Milwaukee -PROBABLY IN THE SUMMER!
*St. Louis -WE DRIVE THROUGH STL LAST WEEKEND...MIGHT GO BACK IN A COUPLE WEEKS TO SEE MY COUSIN.
*Wyoming -ABOUT A MONTH AWAY!!! WOO!!!
*Los Angeles- EHHH SO FAR AWAY...
*Florida! -I WOULD GO TO FLORIDA ANY DAY.
*Michigan City -WENT FOR MY BDAY...
~Learn how to kick a field goal!! -OH HOW FUN!
~Enjoy golfing!! I NEED TO START PLAYING AND TEACHING AGAIN.
~Finish my MBA -FINANCE IS ROUGH...HOPING TO NOT RUIN THE 4.0 GPA.
~Go to Gold's more (last free year! lol) -MY GOAL IS THIS WEEK.
~Caving -DONE--THE LEG STILL HURTS! :)
~Bowling -I PLAY EVERY THURSDAY NIGHT.
~More concerts - UHH NOTHING GOOD...
~Bears training camp -AUGUST.
~Bears game (gotta meet Robbie Gould!) -SUMMER/FALL.
~Take more time to relax- maniures/pedicures -I NEED A HAIR CUT.

I'm doing alright considering the chaos of last month. SOLID!

bleeding love...

Wed, 28 May 2008 03:05:52 GMT

There's so much to say, and no words to start with.

The last 11 days have been the worst days of my life, by far. Thank God my dad is okay, now I just need to be okay. There isn't much that is stable in my life right now, but for those of you who have been there for me this whole time, I can't thank you enough.

I'm sure a long blog will come later, when my mind becomes less frazzled, and I become caught up on my work.

summertime is finally here...

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 18:01:15 GMT

I know it's a day early, but I'm off today due to illness, so I need something to do. I have removed/added things to this list, because luckily I was able to scratch some things off!

~Take dance classes again! -TAP CLASS ENDED, BUT I HAVE RESORTED TO WORKING OUT WITH MY DANCING WITH THE STARS CARDIO BALLROOM DANCE DVD. IT'S SUPER FUN (THE JIVE IS TOUGH!) BUT IT DOESN'T BEAT TAKING REAL CLASSES. HMM. MAYBE THIS SUMMER!
~TRAVEL:
*Oklahoma -MY AUNT PUT HER HOUSE UP FOR SALE YESTERDAY, SOOO DON'T KNOW.
*Springfield -I'LL BE THERE IN 2 WEEKS! HOORAY!
*Milwaukee -PROBABLY IN THE SUMMER!
*St. Louis -SOMETIME THIS SUMMER TO VISIT FAMILY AND FRIENDS.
*Wyoming -ONLY LIKE 3 MONTHS AWAY...OH MAN IT'S GONNA BE FUN!
*Los Angeles -I DON'T THINK THIS IS LOGISTICALLY POSSIBLE.
*Florida! -MAYBE, YOU NEVER KNOW.
*Michigan City -I JUST WENT THIS WEEKEND FOR MY BDAY! NEED TO GO BACK!! :)
~Learn how to kick a field goal!! -I NEED TO DO THIS! HOW FUN!
~Win the long drive contest at Inwood -UGH FOUND OUT TODAY THAT THIS YEAR'S LONG DRIVE CONTEST WILL BE WHEN WE ARE IN WYOMING. DAMN.
~Enjoy golfing!! I PLAYED THIS WEEKEND AND ACTUALLY HAD A BLAST.
~Finish my MBA -OVER HALFWAY DONE, ONLY 4 CLASSES LEFT. SHOULD GRADUATE IN DECEMBER.
~Go to Gold's more (last free year! lol) -CRAP. I NEED TO DO THIS.
~Caving -MAY 31!! WOO!
~Bowling -I'M PLAYING IN JASON'S THURSDAY NIGHT SUMMER LEAGUE STARTING TOMORROW!
~More concerts - IF THERE WERE GOOD ACTS COMING, I WOULD.
~Bears training camp -AUGUST.
~Bears game (gotta meet Robbie Gould!) -SUMMER/FALL.
~Take more time to relax- maniures/pedicures -I SHOULD CALL HEDDA HAIR.

I guess I'm doing well so far....I'm sure more will be added soon. :)

Over halfway done with the MBA!

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 03:52:39 GMT

You're feeling: Exhausted. I just wrote a 15 page paper on managerial accounting today. That's what I get for waiting until the last minute.

To your left: My desk across the room.

On your mind: There's always a lot on my mind. Tomorrow will be another busy/stressful day.

Last meal included: A brownie and milk. Mmm!

You sometimes find it hard to: say what I mean to say.

The weather: is too cold for this time of year! Eww!

Something you have a collection of: Shot glasses. Ireland, Florida, NY, Vegas, etc...

A smell that cheers you up: Coconuts...or Chrome cologne! haha.

A smell that can ruin your mood: Crap. Les egouts!

How long since you last shaved: Today.

The current state of your hair: In a messy ponytail.

The largest item on your desk/workspace (not computer): My textbooks- accounting and marketing.

Your skill with chopsticks: Not too bad! I ate the whole meal at Benihana's with them.

Which section you head for first in a bookstore: Nonfiction or cooking.

Something you're craving: Rest. I think I need to go on sabbatical.

Your general thoughts on the presidential race: I'm sick of hearing about all the bs. I don't know who I'm picking yet, I'll decide in November.

How many times have you been hospitalized this year: None. Even when I almost broke my foot last week I refused to go for treatment. I am not a wuss! :)

Favorite place to go for a quiet moment: The beach...or else my room.

You've always secretly thought you'd be a good: dancer.

Something that freaks you out a little: The future. :(

Something you've eaten too much of lately: Sugar. ooooh or drinking tequila.

You have never: smoked a cigarette. Only a cigar, once. Eww.

You never want to: be unhappy! Or die alone!

there's a million reasons for you to go...

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 03:32:15 GMT

Hello...

I have a lot of random stuff to post eventually, but considering my fatigue I will not be doing that tonight. Plus I'd probably get all riled up again and then I wouldn't be able to get my much needed rest. But on a positive note, the trip to Vegas was fantastic. It was exactly what I needed, although a longer time would have been nice. *shakes fist at real world* I've only been home for about a week, and I'm already looking for more trips. I don't know if it's the winter blues that still linger in me, or something much deeper? Alright, hope all is well. :)

by the way, i hate that stupid old pickup truck you never let me drive...

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 02:49:32 GMT

I'm so bored! So, a survey. Wee.

1. Can you legally drink?
Yes I can, and I do. :)

2. Will you be married in the next 2 years?
Probably not...like 99.9% sure....but I suppose anything is possible.

3. Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?
Depends on the situation, but I can be the queen of awkward moments.

4. What are your least favorite school subjects?
Right now? Accounting. Boo. In the past? Core 3, drawing, math.

5. Who was the last person to call you?
Hmm. Linda.

6. Do you prefer to call or text?
Text.

7. Do you have a pet?
Negative.

8. What did you do today?
I worked all day. And was productive for once!

9. Do you like carrots?
Sure. Especially with ranch dip.

10. When is the last time you saw your mom?
Half hour ago.

11. Do you believe in karma?
Karma's a bitch. You better watch out! :)

12. Are you taller than 5'5"?
Yes!

13. How many city/towns have you lived in?
One. *sigh*

14. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
Flip flops. :)

15. Are you a social person?
I can be, but I can also be very reserved.

17. What are your favorite colors?
Pink and black.

18. What are you doing for your next birthday?
Probably nothing crazy...I'm thinking of going with the fam to Michigan City, IN and New Buffalo, MI for the day.

21. Do you like coffee?
Yes.

22. Would you rather have money or love?
Love!

23. Have you ever sat on a roof?
Yes, good times.

25. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
Middle.

26. Do you know how to play poker?
Texas Hold 'Em.

27. What are you thinking about right now?
I'm still pretty tired, and I should do some accounting homework, meh.

28. Any plans for the weekend?
Hanging with friends....yay!

29. What time do you get up in the morning?
6:00am usually.

31. Do you eat ranch with your pizza?
No.

32. Last person you IMed?
Drew.

33. Have you ever been in an ambulance?
To look around.

34. Do you prefer an ocean or pool?
Both.

35. What color shirt are you wearing?
Grey.

36. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
Nope.

37. What's bothering you right now?
It's cold.

38. Do you hold grudges?
Yes.

40. Who's page did you visit last?
Mine, lol.

41. Are you a Lost fanatic?
Yes.

42. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Sometimes...lol.

43. Earphones or headphones?
Headphones.

44. At this very moment what should you be doing?
Relaxing.

45. Do you read novels often?
Not as much as I should.

46. What is the color of your bedroom walls?
Pink.

47. Do you shut off the water while you brush your teeth?
Yes.

49. Are you mad about anything?
Not so much.

50. Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
Every day.

52. Have you ever thought you liked someone, and then found out that you really didn't like them?
Of course. People turn out to be a lot different than you initially think.

53. Have you ever kissed someone that has smoked weed before?
Eww, and I can think of a few that probably did. Yuck.

54. How was this weekend?
Awesome!!! So much fun and exactly what I needed after last week!! :)

55. Do/did you listen to your parents?
I usually did, and I usually still do...sometimes.

58. Have you ever wanted someone you thought you couldn't have then found out they liked you?
Yes! *crosses fingers and hopes for that again*

59. Do you have any interesting bruises or scars? Where?
My surgical scars are not that fascinating.

60. What was going through your mind during your last kiss?
Honestly- I was thinking that it was a mistake and when is it going to end?! And I was wishing for the past...or a person from the past. It was just bad, and shouldn't have happened.

61. Is there anyone that doesn't like you because of something you did?
Oh I'm sure there's plenty. Oh well for them!

62. Have you ever played naked twister?
Haha no.

63. Do you think your first love affects the way you go on with life?
In a way, yes. Huge impact, some loss, some change.

64. How did you meet the last person you kissed?
I think we met sometime sophomore year at USF...ugh.

65. Would you ever consider having a relationship with your best friend that is of the opposite gender?
Well there are 3 guy friends I would actually consider...one from grade school, one from high school, and we all know who from college/grad school.

67. What do you think about the person that last texted you?
I think it was Dave, and Dave is awesome!

cuz everything inside, it never comes out right...

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 04:36:54 GMT

I haven't posted substantially in awhile. And I don't plan on it tonight. Someday (maybe soon) when I am procrastinating or am bored silly. The semester is already halfway over- I can't believe it. Only 6.5 more weeks. Yikes.

Everything is going well I suppose. I don't really have much to complain about, except that I am still bored, but at least it will be warm soon (I hope) and I can be bored outside.

I'm back dancing again, and I absolutely love it. I started 3 weeks ago, and have been in the best mood I've been in for a long time. I don't know that I can solely credit my content in dance, but nothing else is annoying me to the point of sadness, so that's good.

More to come...hope all is well. Oh, and happy leap year.

Happy Single's Awareness Day!

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 14:54:10 GMT

VALENTiNES SURVEY

1. Do you like anyone?: It would be more unusual if I didn't.
2. Do they know it?: He's known for like 2 1/2 years now. Sad.

IN THE LAST MONTH ((have you)). . .

4. Had someone buy you something?: Yes.
5. Bought something?: Most definitely.
6. Gotten sick?: No, 2008 has started off healthy.
7. Been hugged?: Everyday.
8. Felt stupid?: All the time! :)
9. Talked to an ex?: Weekly.
10. Missed someone: Always.
11. Failed a test: Please. I don't take tests anymore.
12. Ate cereal: Of course!
13. Danced crazy: Always!!
14. Lied?: Lie like a rug! :)
16. Any nervous habits?: Completely spazzing out.
17. Are you double jointed?: Nope.
18. Can you roll your tongue?: Yes, even into a clover.
19. Can you raise one eyebrow?: Yes.
21. Do you make your bed daily?: Definitely.
23. Said "I LOVE YOU" and meant it: Only to family. And I think I said it once, and it was serious, but it came of joking. Oh well!
24. Given money to a homeless person?: Salvation Army.
26. Waited for a phone call that never came?: Probably. But, I don't sit and wait, I just let it go.
27. Snuck out?: Nope.
28. Sat and looked at the stars?: I look at the stars whenever it's not cloudy. I love it.
29. Do you swear?: Like a pirate.
30. Do you ever spit?: Not so much.
31. You cook your own food?: Sometimes.
32. You do your own chores?: Yep.
33. You like beef jerky?: No eww.
34. You like pepsi or coke?: Cherry Coke.
35. You're happy with your hair: Umm it needs new color.
36. You own a dog?: No.
37. You spend your money wisely? Yeah I'm not too frivolous.
38. Do you like to swim?: Yes.
39. Get bored when you call a friend? I call friends if I'm bored...?
40. Are you patient? Nooooooooo. And it has definitely been my downfall in life.

.....DO YOU PREFER.......
41. flowers or chocolate: Aww I like both. :)
42. gray or black?: Black.
43. Color or black and white photos?: Both.
44. lust or love?: Love. <3
45. sunrise or sunset?: Sunset!
46. M&Ms or Skittles?: M&M's.

N0N VALENTiNES DAY Q`S

1. Are you in a relationship? Negative.
2. Sign? Taurus.
3. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes.
4. what about true love? It could happen.
5. Have you made out with casual people? Haha yeah. :P
6. Would you kiss on the first date? Yes, unless I'm creeped out.
7. Do you look for one night stands? Noooooo!
8. Do you enjoy recieving flowers? Of course.
9. Do you enjoy gifts from your girl/guy: I did! Especially the Oreos!

++VALENTiNES QUESTiONS `!!++

1. You have a valentine? Nope! First time in 21 years. Damnit. Losing my touch I guess, haha.
2. Do you like having a valentine?: Well, yeah. Even if it's simply a title, it still makes it more amusing for me. I guess I will not experience it this year though.
3. Does someone like you currently?: *thinks* Don't know.
4. Are you even worried about the upcoming holiday? Definitely not worried. Trying not to care much.
6. Whats the best gift to recieve on the day? Oreos. Sugar. Flowers.
7. Is a little kiss (peck on cheek) during school on v-day sweet? I guess. Never had it happen, soooo whatever. Unless it happens in class tonight, but that would be weird considering there are no kissable people in there.
8. Why is this an important holiday to couples?: I don't know. It's lame.
9. Have you ever gotten something from someone on the day? Oh yes.

clearly ADD...

Fri, 08 Feb 2008 18:17:25 GMT

>1. What is your major?
Master of Business Administration- Management concentration.

2. Do you like banana sandwiches?
I never had one.

>3. What are you listening to right now?
"I Miss You" by Incubus on my Windows player.

>4. What was the last thing you ate?
Garlic breadstick cracker thingy. It was good.

5. Do you wish on stars?
Yes, when it's not cloudy.

6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Pink. A solid pink, not too light of pink.

7. How is the weather right now?
I haven't looked outside since 730 this morning. I assume it's cold, maybe some snow?

>8. Last person you spoke to on the phone?
Hmm probably mother.

>9. Do you like the person who sent this to you?
I found it in the archives.

>10 How old are you today?
21. Only 79 days until I'm 22. Yeah.

11. Favorite drink?
Cherry Coke, Vitamin Water, Hypnotiq and Sprite. :)

12. Favorite sport to watch?
Baseball and football.

13. Have you ever dyed your hair?
Oh yes.

>14. Do you wear contacts or glasses?
No, but I'm sure I will in the future.

15. Pets?
Nope.

16. Favorite month?
April, May, June, July. aka the warmer months!

17. Favorite food?
A lot...

18. What was the last movie you watched?
I don't even know. It's been a few weeks.

19. Favorite day of the year?
Christmas Eve.

20. What do you do to vent anger?
Cry, listen to music, complain to people. sometimes punch things.

21. What was your favorite toy as a child?
Lookout the Bear from Zooblee Zoo.

22. Fall or Spring?
Spring!

23. Hugs or kisses?
Both! :)

24. Cherry or Blueberry?
Cherry by far.

25. Do you want your friends to take this survey?
I don't care.

26. Who is most likely to respond?
Again, don't care.

27. Who is least likely to respond?
Ditto #26.

28. Living arrangements?
The big town of Joliet, house with the parentals. Hooray.

>29. When was the last time you cried?
Last night.

>30. What is on the floor of your closet?
Random things.

31. Who is the friend you have had the longest?
Hmm. Nick H.

>32. What did you do last night?
Work, class. Sleep.

>33. What inspires you?
Other people. My quest for being the best.

>34. What are you afraid of?
Failure, dying alone, making mistakes, spiders, orangutans, creepy people.

>35. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers?
Cheese.

>36. Favorite car?
Pontiac Solstice, and Ford Mustang convertible.

>37. Favorite dog breed?
Schnauzer!

>38. Favorite day of the week?
Friday and Saturday.

>39. How many cities have you lived in?
1.

40. What is the last book you read?
"Good to Great."

>41. Favorite Flower?
Pink ones. Tulips, roses, tropical looking ones.

inventory is boring...

Tue, 05 Feb 2008 15:14:40 GMT

1. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
Last night when I had to make a phone call.

2. What did you dream last night?
Umm nothing that I remember.

4. How are you feeling today?
Okay, same as usual. Tired and a little headachy, but schmeh. Things could be worse.

5. Who was the last person you hugged?
My mom.

6. What is bothering you?
Life. lol.

7. Do you like anyone?
It would be surprising if I didn't.

8. Do you know anyone who is engaged?
Oh yes.

9. What's your favorite number?
14, 20, 27, etc.

10. Who was the last person to make you cry?
THWD was so mean to me the other night.

11. Did you go to camp as a kid?
Dance and cheer camps.

12. When was the last time you cried?
Thursday night on the way home from school.

13. What is one thing you miss about your past?
Dance. Happiness. You don't know what you've lost until it's gone.

14. What is one thing you've learned about life?
It's absolutely crazy.

15. Are you jealous of anyone?
Meh not really.

16. Is anyone jealous of you?
I doubt it...I'm too bitter as of late. lol. :)

17. Has a friend ever used you?
Of course.

19. Who was the last person you drove with?
I drove Carolyn to our sales call yesterday for work.

20. What are you looking forward to?
VEGAS. Getting the hell outta here.

21. What should you be doing?
Working. Or something more work related than this.

22. What are you currently hearing?
96.7 online. "Tainted Love"!!!

23. Do you miss anyone from your past?
Definitely.

24. How many things in your past do you regret?
I've made my share of mistakes and bad choices.

25. Do you have a best friend?
More than one.

27. Who was the last person you talked to?
Hmm. Well no one really talks to me at work. Seriously. I think the last time I spoke was to tell Lisa she had a phone call.

29. If you could change anything about your past, what would you change?
Giving up dance, shoving people out of my life, etc.

31. Do you like your life?
Umm...I don't dislike it. But the past year or so has been rather rough.

32. Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
Of course.

33. Did you forgive them?
Some.

34. Who is your best girlfriend?
NL, Hickey, Steph, Lisette, Linda

35. Do you get along with girls or guys better?
Both...but probably girls.

36. How long have you had MySpace?
Uhh I don't know. Awhile now.

37. Has anyone ever cheated on you?
No, I don't think so.

38. Have you ever slapped a girl/boy in the face?
No, I don't slap in the face...I kick in the shin.

39. If so why?
He pissed me off.

40. What are some of your biggest fears of your life?
Failure, dying alone, losing people I love.

41. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Numerous times.

42. Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out you were right?
Yes. And I still do. So there's still hope. At least I have optimism.

44. Are looks important?
They aren't #1 in importance.

50. Do you like it when people your age say they are in love?
I don't really care as long as they don't flaunt it in front of me much.

waiting on the world to change...

Tue, 15 Jan 2008 17:46:18 GMT

1. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Nope. lol.

2. What song describes your relationship status?
"Let's Be Us Again" by Lonestar, "I Miss You" by Incubus, "I Want You Back" by *NSYNC, "Who Knew" by Pink. I'm sure there's more, but this will suffice.

3. How much does your dog weigh?
I don't have a dog.

4. Are you a heart breaker, or the heart breakee?
I've been both, thanks. Rather be the heart breaker though.

5. Ever waxed your legs?
Yes.

6. Earrings or necklaces?
Necklaces.

7. Who have you talked to most today?
Hmm. Either Amy or Katie at work.

9. Friend of the opposite sex that lives closest to you?
Nick lives on the next block!

10. Color of your shirt
Which one? I've gone for the layered look today. Magenta tank top, black and white polka dot short-sleeved blouse, and black 3/4 sweater.

11. How many years have you taken a language?
4 years of French.

12. Who's on speed dial 5?
Nicole.

13.What color is your desktop?
At work? Blue with the FCB logo, but when I lock my laptop it's a pic I took of the Eiffel Tower at sunset. At home it's Jon Garland in the Sox dugout.

14. Do you wish on 11:11?
No.

15. Good advice if you ever go camping?
Don't stay on the beach, bring an umbrella, and no turkeys.

16. Are you a bad influence?
Sometimes.

17. What color are your eyes?
I think they're mostly blue today. Sometimes they're more greenish.

18. Would you rather have your name or your siblings name?
Well there's no siblings to switch with...

19. Would you do anything for someone?
Pretty much.

20. Have you ever been called a whore?
Haha of course.

21. favorite color?
Pink and black.

22. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
:P all the time!

23. What song is on?
"Cryin'" by Aerosmith.

24. Are your grades good?
Well I graduated cum laude, and have had straight A's the past few semesters, so yeah.

25. Do you have any friends with benefits?
Not anymore...haha.

26. Would you date anyone on your top friends?
On LJ? No. Myspace? Yes.

27. Does your best friend have a myspace?
Yes she does.

28. Who's page did you last visit?
Mine. I'm so selfish. lol.

29. Last time you went out to lunch?
I had Mickey's on Sunday. And today I'm going to La Mex.

30. Do you watch the Gilmore Girls?
Hahaha no.

31. Do you enjoy listening to Jack Johnson?
I don't seek him out.

32. Have you ever seen or enjoyed watching the O.C.?
I have seen the OC before it was canceled. Dan got me into it right as the 4th season started. But I was not a fan all along, and I don't miss it.

33. Do you have one or more Britney Spears C.D.s?
I think I have one or two. Sad.

34. Which radio stations are your favorites?
96.7, 98.3, 103.5

35. Are you a Lost fanatic?
I wouldn't go as fa as saying fanatic, but I enjoy Lost.

36. Still have pictures of your Ex?
Yes I do...on my desk and in my room still.

37. Do you have a song by Ozzy Osbourne in your library?
Nope.

38. Alanis Morsette?
Negative.

39. Do you watch Family Guy Regularly?
No.

40. King of the Hill?
No.

41. Do you read trashy romance novels often?
Lol no...no Fabio or Sebastien for me.

42. Do you ever forget to give a Christmas/birthday present?
Yes sir, I still have Drew's from August.

43. Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
I sing in the car all the time. :)

44. Do you sing obnoxiously in the shower when no one's home?
Nope.

45. Have you ever watched a little kid's show when you were over 12?
High-5!!!!! "My hair is blonde...your hair is dark..."

[[The Necessary Love Questions That Aren't So Necessary]]

46. Have you ever pretended your crush was with you when they werent?
No I'm not weirdly pathetic.

47. Did you draw pictures for your first crush back in elementary school?
Maybe? I started young...lol.

48. Have you ever liked a girl/boy but didnt ask her/him out?
Oh yeah.

49. Have you ever written a poem or story about your life?
Heck no.

50. Have you ever spent over an hour thinking about nothing but your crush?
Sadly, the answer is probably yes.

51. Have you ever liked someone solely for their appearance?
I think everyone has done that at some point.

[[The Questions You Love:Completely and Utterly Pointless Ones]]

52. Do you eat all the servings in the food groups on a daily basis?
I doubt it.

53. Are you ever a freak about cleanliness or organization?
Cleanliness over organization. I usually have an organized mess.

54. Have you ever been to South America or Africa?
Nope.

55. Do you know how to knit?
Haha no I don't have any patience.

56. Do you have a cell phone or iPod with a patterned cover?
Negative.

57.Have you ever written love song lyrics yourself and put them in your profile?
No way.

58.Do you keep a diary or journal online?
No kidding.

59.When you open your closet, what is the dominant color?
White, black, brown, pink.

[[Truly Unusual This or That Questions]]

60.Baskin Robbins or Coldstone?
Dairy Queen.

61.Physics or chemistry?
Neither. Physics I guess.

62.Earphones or headphones?
Headphones.

63.pink or teal?
Clearly pink...

64.Earrings or a ring?
Ring.

65.Commitment or casual dating?
Commitment please.

66.Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings or Star Wars?
Original Star Wars I guess.

67.Fly or road trip?
Either- love both.

68.Starbucks or Caribou?
Starbucks.

[[Another Wave of Random Questions]]

69.What is your favorite Disney movie?
The Little Mermaid...oooh I think Remember the Titans is Disney too. :)

70. What did your last text message say?
I think it was something from Drew...probably referencing the Giants defeating Dallas and playing GB this week.

71.How much jewelry do you own?
Enough. :)

sail away...

Fri, 11 Jan 2008 14:53:59 GMT

1. Who is the last person you held hands with?
Hmm. I don't know. I want to say Stephanie for some weird reason. lol. But maybe Dan at some random point? I really don't know.

2. If you were drafted into a war, would you survive?
Ha no.

3. Where were you 30 min ago?
Sitting here in my cubicle.

4. Do you drink milk out of the carton?
Eww no.

5. Have you ever won a spelling bee?
Welcome to grade school. I was a spelling machine!

6. Were your parents cool in high school?
Not really...lol!

7. How fast can you type?
Pretty quick.

8. Are you afraid of the dark?
Sometimes...it's creepy!

9. Eye color?
Mostly blue...sometimes greenish.

10. How old are you?
21 for 107 more days. (My financial caldendar at work counts all the days, hehe).

11. When is the last time you chose a bath over a shower?
Don't know.

12. Currently listening to...?
"Paralyzer" by Finger Eleven. And coworkers talking.

13. Are you drinking anything right now?
Ice Mountain water.

15. Can you hula hoop?
Sure.

17. What did you want for Christmas?
All I asked for was a Robbie Gould jersey. And I got it. :)

20. Who wrote the book of love?..
A fool. lol.

22. Are your parents divorced?
No.

25. Current hair color?
Brown with blonde highlights.

26. Plans for tomorrow?
Sleeping, maybe BAN meeting (so early though), and I want to shop.

27. When was the last time you said "I love you."
Probably sarcastically yesterday.

28. How do you feel today?
Really tired, but excited from my marketing class, and excited for the casino tonight.

29. Are you loved?
That would be nice.

30. What color is the sky?
Usually blue. Today I think it's grey from clouds.

32. Are you black?
Hahaha no.

33. Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?
Noooo.

34. What are you looking forward to?
Hmm. Casino tonight. The new year. Classes. Friends. Travel. Fixing things. Graduating.

35. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Of course.

36. Ever snuck out of your house?
No.

37. Have you ever eaten dog food?
Eww no.

38. Can you handle the truth?
Not always.

39. Do you like green eggs and ham?
I don't know, Sam I am.

40. What 4 things do you almost always bring w/you to places?
Purse-- wallet, cell phone, lipgloss, gum.

41. Any cool scars?
My scars aren't especially cool.

43. How many kids do you plan on having?
2?

44. What do you do when no one is watching?
Dance...all the time!

46. Do you talk to yourself?
Oooh yeah!

[where's 47?]

48. Personality, eyes or a nice watermelon?
Personality!

49. What are you thinking about right now?
TGIF.

50. Who did you last hug?
I think Dave Senior last night.

51. Where is your cell phone?
In my purse, in my bottom drawer in my desk.

52. Whats the last thing you ate?
Frosted Cheerios.

53. what did your last text message say?
I don't know...I think it was from Dave Wallen about going to the bar soon.

54. Favorite color(s)?
Pink and black.

55. Last movie you watched?
Center Stage.

56. What song do you currently hear?
"This Ain't a Scene, It's an Arms Race" by Fall Out Boy.

57. What do you want?
Happiness, things to be better with people, warm weather, my MBA.

58. Have you ever dated anyone on your friends list?
on LJ? No. Myspace? Yes.

59. Do you miss someone right now?
Always. <3

60. Do you love someone right now?
=)

61. Do you shop at American Eagle?
Not so much anymore.

62. Relationship Status?
Not taken. Not actively looking. It's complicated.

63. Have any bestfriends?
Of course...NL, Hickey, Steph, Jason, Linda, Dan, Lisette, etc...

A Festivus for the rest of us...

Mon, 24 Dec 2007 05:07:08 GMT

Here is my list of grivances for the year 2007. As y'all know it was a very tough year for me, so the list is lengthy. I'm sure I may think of more things to add, but for now here it goes, in no particular order.

And at the Festivus dinner, you gather your friends around, and tell them all the ways they and the world have disappointed you over the past year!

I've got a lot of problems with you people, and now you're going to hear about it!

2007 Grievances:

*Jon Garland’s trade
*Kenny Williams
*The White Sox terrible season
*Mark Buehrle
*The Turkey
*THWD
*Creepy people
*Fat Man
*People who complain about everything and bring others down
*Some people at work
*Most of Inwood
*A perfectly good heart that was broken in millions of pieces
*Cold weather
*The lack of escalators in the Parisian Metro
*The taste of the water in France
*The exchange rate of dollars to Euro
*It wasn’t 2006
*USF graduate admissions
*USF financial aid
*USF undergrad admissions office
*My shoulder
*Spiders
*Bad drivers
*Steak
*Goat cheese
*The pressure change on airplanes
*Being sick on 3 of the 4 major trips I took
*The “Umbrella” song
*Alcoholics
*Cingular was bought by AT&T
*People that talk down to me
*My softball ‘skills’
*My fantasy baseball team
*The abundance of Facebook applications
*The Fed
*Working 8-5 M-F
*My last USF golf tourney
*Expensive fuel
*New York Yankees
*Facebook Bumper Stickers!
*Marie Osmond
*The graduation ceremony speaker
*Empter
*Lame people
*When people ditch me on a repeated basis
*White Chocolate
*Eggplant
*Cheesecake
*Pork chops
*Power outages
*The price of Patron tequila
*Blind dates
*Yahoo radio
*Insomnia
*Jimmy John’s
*Food poisoning
*Sinus infections
*The fact that Dairy Queen is seasonal
*The large size of Central Park
*Annoying people in painting class

I love New York...

Mon, 10 Dec 2007 21:34:34 GMT

While in New York this weekend, we had many Seinfeld references, including this one, which is one of my favorites.

From, "The Dinner Party"

Scene: After the last chocolate babka is purchased. Jerry and Elaine are trying to find another item.

Jerry: That's the last babka. They got the last babka.
Elaine: I know. They're going in first with the last babka.
Jerry: That was our babka.
Elaine: You can't beat a babka.
Jerry: We should have had that babka.
Elaine: They're going to be heroes.
Jerry: What are we going to do now.? If we can't get the babka the whole thing's useless.
Elaine: Well how about a carrot cake?
Jerry: Carrot cake? Now why is that a cake? You don't make carrots into a cake. I'm sorry.
Elaine: Black Forest?
Jerry: Black Forest? Too scary. You're in the Forest, oohh.
Jerry: How about a Napoleon?
Elaine: Napoleon? Who's he to have a cake? He was a ruthless war monger. Might as well get Mengele.
Jerry: That was our babka. We had that babka!
Elaine: What's this one?
Clerk: That's cinnamon babka.
Jerry: Another babka?
Clerk: There's chocolate, and there's cinnamon?
Jerry (To Elaine): Well, we've got to get the cinnamon.
Elaine: No, but they got the chocolate. We'll be going in with a lesser babka.
Jerry: I beg your pardon? Cinnamon takes a back seat to no babka. People love cinnamon. It should be on tables at restaurants along with salt and pepper. Anytime anyone says, "Oh This is so good. What's in it?" The answer invariably comes back, "Cinnamon". "Cinnamon". Again and again. Lesser babka - I think not.
Clerk: 49?
Elaine: I'll have the cinnamon babka.
Jerry:...and a black and white cookie, for me. (Holds up two fingers) Peace!

A review of 2007...

Tue, 04 Dec 2007 21:46:03 GMT

2007 in Review
January
1. Did you have a new year's resolution this year?: I doubt it.
2. Who kissed you at midnight?: Daniel G. Younker. :)
3. Does it snow where you live?: Yes, ewww.
4. Do you like hot chocolate?: Absolutely!!!
5. Have you ever been to times Square to watch the ball drop?: No. But I will be in Times Square this weekend! Hooray!

February
1. Who was your valentine in 2007?: Well Dan gave me presents, but I went to dinner with NL, Hickey, Steph, and Lisette! :)
2. What did your valentine give you?: A pink teddy bear and Double Chocolate Oreos. hehe.
3. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class?: Of course.

March
1. Are you Irish?: Oooh yes.
2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day?: Duh!
3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2007?: The Lounge Crew partied at Linda's for corned beef, cabbage and potatoes! Yum! Oooh and a whole lotta Rayman!

April
1. Do you like the rain?: No.
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?: I doubt it.
3. Do you get tons of candy on Easter?: Not tons.

May
1. What's your favorite kind of flower?: Tulips and roses.
2. Do you like the spring?: Sure.
3. Finish the phrase: April showers brings: my birthday and baseball season! Hooray!
4. What would you think of as a spring color?: Pink.

June
1. What year did/do you graduate from school?: Just graduated in May, and the next graduation will be December 2008.
2. Did you go on any vacations last June?: France and Ireland!

July
1. What did you do on the 4th of July? Hmm. Went to Nicole's, ate and drank, and watched the fireworks from her roof.
2. Went on any vacations during this month? None in July.

August
1. Did you do anything special to end off your summer?: Went to Florida the week before I started work and school, then I guess just Younker's end of summer party.
2. What was your favorite summer memory of '07? The trip to Europe. Hands down. :)
3. Do you go swimming a lot in the summer?: No, only in Florida.
4. Do you go to the beach a lot?: No.

September
1. Did you attend school/college in '07?: Yes.
2. Who is/was your favorite teacher?: In '07?? Haefner, Don, and Paul Erschen! :)
3. Do you like fall better than summer?: Never.

October
1. What was your favorite Halloween costume ever?: Miss America.
2. What's your favorite candy?: Anything dark chocolate.
3. What did you dress up like this year?: Green Monkeys from LOTHT.

November
1. Whose house do you usually go to for thanksgiving?: Mine.
2. Do you like stuffing?: It's okay.
3. What are you thankful for?: Friends and family. And luck.

December
1. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe?: No. :( Maybe that's why things didn't work out much after Christmas last year...lol.
2. What do you want this year for Christmas?: Besides the obvious, a white Robbie Gould jersey.
3. Do you like cold weather?: Noooo.
4. How would you rate your 07? 5 outta 10.
5. What is your New Years resolution for next year? To keep perservering and never give up on my dreams.

crash into me...

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 16:31:34 GMT

"It's hard to wait around for something that may never happen, but it's harder to give it up, especially when it's everything you've ever wanted."

i think i need a sunrise...

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 03:40:45 GMT

So I've been thinking and this has been such a great year of travel for me. I went to Chicago, Oklahoma, France, Ireland, Florida, Springfield, and St. Louis. New York is next in December. Traveling is so much fun!! I want to save my money and get to more places so here is a random list.

Places in the U.S. I haven't been and want to go to:

*New York City
*Las Vegas
*Los Angeles
*San Diego
*Boston
*Hawaii
*Minneapolis
*Memphis
*New Orleans
*Atlanta
*Washington D.C.
*San Francisco
*Tuscon
*Bahamas/Carribean

Places in the U.S. I want to go back to: (not including Chicago, etc)

*Ft. Lauderdale
*Naples
*Key West
*Clearwater
*Myrtle Beach
*Tulsa
*Charlotte
*Michigan City

International locations:

*New Zealand
*Australia
*London
*all of Ireland
*Cabo San Lucas
*Scotland
*Wales
*Greece
*Croatia
*Belgium
*Fiji
*Japan
*La Rochelle
*Poland
*Germany
*South Africa
*Italy
*Amsterdam

I'm sure I will be adding to this list. And saving all of my money so I can start crossing off all of these places!

ugh..

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 19:42:22 GMT

Let it be known that I will not be eating Jimmy John's for a long time.

Food poisoning sucks. :(

people...

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 02:36:53 GMT

So in my management class on Tuesday nights, we took a really cool Myers-Briggs personality test. I found out that I am type ENFJ. I have done a little research and I would say it's about 99% accurate about me. I would recommend doing one of these tests, they're pretty cool and I think pretty accurate.

ENFJ Extraverted Feeling with Intuition

ENFJ types arouse support and enthusiasm for new projects. They express themselves well, especially in front of a group. They radiate concern for others and will work hard in their behalf. Their actions are usually guided by an idealistic vision that they believe is possible for people.

Choosing a Major
Say an ideal career is one that lets them use their special abilities
Tend to decide early on a major and stick with it
Tend to choose people-oriented majors that require cooperation, such as teaching, ministry, counseling, or selling
Playing
Often involved in campus activities helping others or providing some service, often as a leader
Initiate many get-togethers in the dorm but first ask what others want to do
Say they have no trouble dating once a week or more
Throw themselves into work but enjoy it if they are helping others
Learning Style
Report that the most important goal of education is to learn how to get along with different kinds of people
Interested in literature and tolerant of theory
Do their best thinking aloud, bouncing ideas off others
Achieve through perseverance and hard work
Want learning to pertain to human values and growth
Possible Causes of Stress
May try to take care of others more than themselves
May over-idealize others
May be oversensitive to indifference and personalize it
Their need to socialize may interfere with work
May try to live by others' "shoulds"
Reading, Writing, Studying
Need harmony to study or achieve potential
Prefer to study with others and often organize study groups
Prefer to read about human interest rather than technical subjects
Would rather talk than write, and often dictate their first drafts
Need to revise final draft to make it more logical and sequential, and to remove too many references to personal convictions
Dealing with Stress
Like going to movies with friends to relieve tension
Naturally rely on friends for support
Naturally give their personal best to any task
Learn to identify and take care of own needs
Must make time for studies in busy social schedule

ENFJ
Smooth-talking Persuader
The ENFJ may best be described as a smooth-talking persuader. The ENFJ's combination of preferences makes this type a natural when it comes to motivating people--even motivating them to do something they may not initially have wanted to do.
Their focus and direction is toward other people (Extraversion), and they are highly skilled in understanding others' needs and motivations (Feeling). These tendencies, along with their gift for imagination and inspiration (Intuition), are expressed in an organized, effective way that allows them to make their imaginative ventures become reality. Hence, the ENFJ is a highly credible leader who attracts many followers.
The ENFJ has the capacity to size up a situation Intuitively and, in a very caring and concerned way, say just the right thing. This is part of why people are drawn to ENFJs, and why ENFJs are such natural leaders. They are seldom at a loss to Intuit just what the group needs or how to reach its goal.
Because of these group-leadership abilities, ENFJs, more than other Feeling types, often rise to the top of a cross section of organizations. They are, indeed, natural and often well-liked leaders. The ENFJ sees the entire world as filed with people whose endless needs and concerns are waiting to be funneled into organizations and institutions that can serve those human needs. ENFJs have a zeal for imposing "what's good for humanity" upon humanity--and, fortunately, more often than not, humanity is better off as a result.
Paradoxically, one of their biggest difficulties derives from one of their greatest strengths. While very accomplished at working with other people and groups, ENFJs can become depressed, wounded, even bitter, if their ideas meet with resistance. They take conflict or rejection very personally, and often carry a grudge against the individuals or groups involved. Disagreements tend to escalate into win-lose issues and become personalized, with loyalties sharply marked, even when the other side had only intended to raise some valid questions. Such behavior by ENFJs in influential positions has divided families, organizations, and systems.
The female ENFJ has an advantage because many of the nurturing, caring qualities associated with this type are considered feminine. However, when an ENFJ female assumes leadership beyond the family and moves, quite naturally, to larger systems, she may have trouble. The system, and especially its male members, may resent her. Suddenly all those qualities for which she was rewarded at home, in college, or in other organizational ranks, now become the basis for scorn because she has "overstepped her bounds" as a woman. She is not doing anything differently from what she has done successfully in the past; the end result, however, can be conflict.
ENFJs are such effective leaders that the male is often seen as a "man among men" and seductively appealing to women. Both men and women look to the male ENFJ for leadership and decisiveness in a supportive climate--and rarely are they disappointed. This notwithstanding, all ENFJs, including males, are often criticized as insincere or superficial because of their smooth and glib way with words. ENFJs may respond to such criticism with incredulity, often followed by depression and self-doubt, because their sincerity and concern are their driving force and motivation.
Relating to an ENFJ is usually fairly easy. As a rule, an ENFJ wants a happy and affirming relationship because that is how everyone works best. Highly articulate, with excellent social skills and a quick sense of humor, ENFJ will still work just as hard at making the occasion a lively and memorable one. Unfortunately, as with most Extraverts, if an ENFJ works too hard at it, all the other person is likely to remember is how much talking the ENFJ did and how little listening.
Parenting, for the ENFJ, is a responsibility and a pleasure. There are young lives just waiting to be molded by the ENFJ's value system. Unlike most other types, especially Percievers, ENFJs don't wait for a child to develop. Instead, right and wrong, good and bad, and other models are imposed in a very warm, supportive, and clearly defined environment. A child will know where an ENFJ parent stands on most things, and how he or she is expected to behave. When behavior is appropriate, affirmation abounds. Negative behavior, however, often makes an ENFJ parent feel like a failure, which in turn can give the child who picks up on these feelings a sense of guilt about failing to please mother and father.
When harmony prevails, the living style of the ENFJ is lively and fun. But there must be order before relaxation, and fun must be balanced by a good measure of work. Peaceful and joyful living are certainly a goal--and an expectation. However, achieving that goal generally requires either following the ENFJ's good intentions or letting the ENFJ show you "the error of your ways" and redirect you toward "real joy"--whatever the ENFJ deems that to be.
As a general rule, people are central and important to ENFJs. This means that if people's needs end up in conflict with rules and schedules, the ENFJ will generally put people first--though not without a sense of martyrdom or possibly guilt.
ENFJ children's verbal skills develop early and stay with them. They are often advised to become public speakers, preachers, or announcers "when they grow up." ENFJ children are pleasers, wanting strokes from adults. They are also hero worshippers, often imitating those they idolize, whether it be a parent, sibling, teacher, or anyone else who has had a dramatic influence on them. Since imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, it is not surprising that ENFJ children are often teachers' pets and parents' favorites.
Learning, for ENFJs, is also imitation. They seek to learn by emulating their heroes, and how they learn. In fact, somewhat like ENFPs, so strong is their desire to please and be stroked that ENFJs can end up in careers far removed from their natural abilities if they think that will endear them to the heroes they are emulating.
Family events are fun for an ENFJ. Almost without being asked, the ENFJ child or adult will assume a responsibility for making events entertaining, harmonious, and enriching for all. The ENFJ is usually tuned in to family events, ready to provide games, entertainment, wit, wisdom, or whatever else may be needed. Generally, family members appreciate this dimension of the ENFJ, and of course, the ENFJ then feels affirmed and fulfilled.
Clearly, any opportunity to be with others, to entertain, serve, involve other and be involved, is far more rewarding than sleep or any other solitary activity. In fact, too much time alone can make an ENFJ pensive, moody, self-punitive, and depressed. More than other types the ENFJ needs to move among and be engaged by people. Even a negative stroke from another person is better than being ignored.
ENFJs are drawn to careers that serve others with minimal potential for interpersonal conflict. Work that involves too many specific details, an abundance of paperwork, or too much time alone will be boring if not stressful to ENFJs. They are especially drawn to religious organizations, academia, and psychological services and approach these careers with enthusiasm and commitment. They are natural teachers and preachers, although they can become frustrated with the accompanying administrative demands, ending up somewhat disillusioned.
Senior citizenship may bring some Introversion and objectivity to the ENFJ, and with reflection may come the insight that the world is not going to be saved by anything the ENFJ can do, that life is going to continue--and probably quite well--without the ENFJ. Unless there is some respite from service to others, the ENFJ can suffer burnout. If that is avoided, the natural growth cycle can afford the ENFJ the chance to stop, "smell the daisies"--and quit trying to save the entire world. As a result, retirement, though perhaps still characterized by the service ethos, can also allow more focus on personal needs and a more relaxed, less compulsive way of life.
Famous likely ENFJs include Ronald Reagan (who is socially gregarious--ENFJs are naturally "great communicators"--and whose emotional stance on issues translates into rigid, not very negotiable positions); Jerry Falwell (who believes all would be well if people followed his moral preachings, and whose visions have indeed garnered a great following); and Martin Luther King, Jr. (whose highly idealistic dreams and charismatic leadership created a fiercely loyal following).

Summary - ENFJ
Contributions to the Organization
Bring strong ideals of how organizations should treat people
Enjoy leading and facilitating teams
Enjoy cooperation
Communicate organizational values
Like to bring matters to fruitful conclusions
Leadership Style
Lead through personal enthusiasm
Take a participative stance in managing people and projects
Responsive to followers' needs
Challenge the organization to make actions congruent with values
Inspire change
Preferred Work Environment
Contains individuals focused on changing things for the betterment of others
People-oriented
Supportive and social
Has a spirit of harmony
Encourages expression of self
Settled
Orderly
Potential Pitfalls
May idealize others and suffer from blind loyalty
May sweep problems under the rug when in conflict
May ignore the task in favor of relationship issues
May take criticism personally
Suggestions for Development
May need to recognize the limitations of people and guard against unquestioning loyalty
May need to learn to manage conflict productively
May need to pay as much attention to the details of the task as to the people
May need to suspend self-criticism and listen carefully to the objective information contained in feedback
Order of Mental Preferences
Feeling
Intuition
Sensing
Thinking

cinderella...

Sun, 16 Sep 2007 02:25:53 GMT

Stranger than your sympathy
And this is my apology
I killed myself from the inside out
And all my fears have pushed you out

And I wished for things that I don’t need
And what I chased won’t set me free
And I get scared but I’m not crawlin’ on my knees

Oh, yeah
Everything’s all wrong, yeah
Everything’s all wrong, yeah
Where the hell did I think I was?

And stranger than your sympathy
Take these things, so I don’t feel
I’m killing myself from the inside out
And now my head’s been filled with doubt

We’re taught to lead the life you choose
You know your luck’s run out on you
And you can’t see when all your dreams are coming true

Oh, yeah
It’s easy to forget, yeah
When you choke on the regrets, yeah
Who the hell did I think I was?

And stranger than your sympathy
And all these thoughts you stole from me
And I’m not sure where I belong
And no where’s home and no more wrong

And I was in love with things I tried to make you believe I was
And I wouldn’t be the one to kneel before the dreams I wanted
And all the dark and all the lies were all the empty things disguised as me

Stranger than your sympathy
Stranger than your sympathy

*Goo Goo Dolls*

very much a rant, although today was a good day...

Sun, 09 Sep 2007 03:58:58 GMT

i am just not in the greatest of moods. i wish i was though, considering today was a pretty fun day. i'm just getting annoyed that people put on a mask and act one way, but you know they are another. i am having a tough time finding the real core in people, and even myself. people seem so fake, they don't know what they want, they take advantage of people who mean well and don't know any better. i'm sick of being the person putting in all of the effort. ugh. and i'm not just emotionally hurting now, i am physically hurting too. i am very sunburned (very much my own fault) and there is a chance something is broken in my foot. i think it's probably a strain, but it hurts like hell and i can barely move it. grrr.

but, like i said, today was great. my dad and i went to the PGA's BMW Championship at Cog Hill (formerly the Western Open). It was great sitting outside all day and watching most of the world's best golfers. I got to see Tiger Woods, Ernie Els, Vijay Singh, Aaron Baddeley, Sergio Garcia, and of course the good looking Adam Scott. I think in general, things are going okay. I still don't know if I like my MBA classes, and I'm still not sure if I made the right choice by going back right away. I like my job, I'm getting used to sitting in an office from 8-5 M-F. It's just small parts that I am still learning and struggling with. I have never felt so alone though. Everyone kind of went their own way to find themselves and learn new things, and maybe that's what's supposed to happen at this stage in our lives. I am very much a people person, so it's weird not seeing everyone all the time. Or even talking to everyone all the time. That's what leads me back to my initaial rant about people not trying. I'm sick of trying to make efforts, when the efforts are not returned. Yes, I know everyone went their own ways, but have they forgotten the core? I know I haven't, but maybe that's life. Maybe I am supposed to learn to let go. I don't know.

Time for aspirin and sleep. And more dreading the week ahead.

when you're gone...

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 03:24:32 GMT

i'm sick of people. i think my fear of becoming a hermit isn't sounding so bad anymore. i'm still weirded out by the people from my past suddenly coming back. and the people who were currently in my life don't seem to care anymore. i'm sick of being the one putting in any effort. i can't be the glue forever.

she's got a ticket to ride...

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 03:38:42 GMT

well i made it through the first week of my first real job. i think overall it went well. my usual hours are 8-5, unless i eat a faster lunch and then i'm out by 430. i have a cute little cubicle downstairs. tomorrow i will put some pictures up to decorate. i have my own laptop and everything. it's cool so far. i'm starting to make friends too. katie and i went to lunch last week, and i think maggie and i are going this week. it's still really weird, especially to think i will be there 8-5, m-f, every single week. i know i will get used to it though.

school is going well so far too. i really like my online class. i know many people in there, and most of them are in my group for our group project. as long as i read and remember to post in the discussion area, i think this class will be great. as for my tuesday night class, i have mixed feelings. i think theres like 14 people in there, and i am by far the youngest. there are people in there with 20 years of work experience, and one guy is a CEO of a company. yeah. i was like hi, i just started my first real job as a marketing assistant. *sigh* it's also really weird being back at usf. maybe i should have gone somewhere else, where i feel like i belong. meh, i will be done soon enough.

other than that, things are okay. a little boring around j-town. everyone is keeping busy though, so thats always a good thing. i might go to a bonfire tomorrow night with markus, kaeleigh, and dan. i'm not sure though. we'll see how busy i am at work and how tired i am. man, there's just so much to do. so many people to visit too...don't know how i will have time for everything. alright i just thought i would update. maybe more this week. have a good week!

its time for the percolator...

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 03:39:34 GMT

so i made it through my first day of the rest of my life. work. it was okay. the morning was a little rough, but all was well by the afternoon. im starting to talk to people more, even though the age difference can be big. not terrible with some, but larger with others. someone brought in ice cream cake today, so that was a nice thing to take a break to.

i get an hour for lunch. i think that on tuesdays and maybe fridays i will only take a half hour, thus getting out early. tuesdays for sure i will want to be out by 430 so i can go sit in beautiful usf for 4 hours. ugh. i still feel fairly neutral on the tuesday class. i signed on for my online class today, and im more excited about that one. i think because i dont really know anyone in it. i know one girl, she went to usf and graduated the year before us. tomorrows class though, it will be me, kaeleigh, markus, and dan. very much filled with mixed feelings on that. oh well. i'll get over it.

i actually feel the best ive felt all year. i dont even know why. maybe because things are getting better and starting to fall into place. i think enough time has gone by that i am starting to get over evreything that has occurred in the past 6 months. i'm finally excited again and starting to feel like jeanne again. not melancholy, boring, about to cry about anything jeanne. i am back to the hyper, boy-crazy, fun jeanne that i was. i was starting to get worried if i was changed forever and would be a depressed person forever. luckily, im not!

i've talked to jason a lot since i've gotten home. he really made my vacation more fun...and has made my week fun too. still wish he lived closer...or i was moving to florida! lol. oh well. alright well i hope everything is going well for everyone. let's see how class goes tomorrow...

Choosing a Major Say an ideal career is one that lets them use their special abilities Tend to decide early on a major and stick with it Tend to choose people-oriented majors that require cooperation, such as teaching, ministry, counseling, or selling	Playing Often involved in campus activities helping others or providing some service, often as a leader Initiate many get-togethers in the dorm but first ask what others want to do Say they have no trouble dating once a week or more Throw themselves into work but enjoy it if they are helping others
Learning Style Report that the most important goal of education is to learn how to get along with different kinds of people Interested in literature and tolerant of theory Do their best thinking aloud, bouncing ideas off others Achieve through perseverance and hard work Want learning to pertain to human values and growth	Possible Causes of Stress May try to take care of others more than themselves May over-idealize others May be oversensitive to indifference and personalize it Their need to socialize may interfere with work May try to live by others' "shoulds"
Reading, Writing, Studying Need harmony to study or achieve potential Prefer to study with others and often organize study groups Prefer to read about human interest rather than technical subjects Would rather talk than write, and often dictate their first drafts Need to revise final draft to make it more logical and sequential, and to remove too many references to personal convictions	Dealing with Stress Like going to movies with friends to relieve tension Naturally rely on friends for support Naturally give their personal best to any task Learn to identify and take care of own needs Must make time for studies in busy social schedule